Today in church, I asked a person how his week was. He told me it was great, and went on talking about how he thought even the act of rubbing your hands together was mindblowing. He looked really excited about it. For a while, I thought to myself, "It's just rubbing your hands together..." But he said something along the lines of, "I wouldn't even know how to describe this feeling (to someone else)!" Then I thought to myself, "Isn't this just like me, when I see a beautiful, innocent light in someone, and am unable to tell them exactly how HAPPY I am? Even though the light is tainted, there are those moments when the light is ON and shining so bright that it washes out everything else. When the light is HAPPY. When it knows, in God-terms, what love is. Because you know what? God IS love. The Bible doesn't say God HAS love. Nope. God IS love.
Sometimes I see that shine in people, and I wished it could stay that way forever, because their true selves are sparkling. They are being child-like (NOT childish, which is just immaturity). And we all know how much I love kids.
I honestly think that immaturity stems from selfishness. In fact, all sin stems from selfishness. So when I deem myself more important than others, I am not exemplifying love. When I tell myself that this culture is more important than my basic beliefs, I am putting God in a secondary place. I am dissing God's perfection. When I try to prove my worth, I am telling God that he didn't do so great. Who can tell the Creator that he screwed up?
When you give, you are love. When all you can think about is what others can do for you, that's selfishness. And we all know that subconsciously, because we have all been there.
I don't even consider yesterday's post to be an accurate description of the light. There are no words to describe it correctly. Let's just say that I see (whenever I say see, I mean feel) something beautiful inside people, but they are not fulfilling their full potential. And when I see that (and I see it constantly), I become sad, because I know and clearly see that beautiful purity...if only they would strive for it too. But then at the same time, I am happy, because you only know what is good when you have seen what is evil.
People in this world (myself included) often strive for things. It's great. But do you know why it's also not great? Sometimes I strove for something that doesn't matter. Something that doesn't last. And that's called time wasted.
I should say that anyone who knows me knows I am the slowest person on Earth. I think I must have rubbed off of my late turtle, Golden Toe. He was this little green turtle that my mom's friend smuggled for me from China. So yes, he was an illegal immigrant :D But I loved my turtle anyways because he reminded me that being slow has its benefits, no matter how much my dad would be yelling every day: "Michelle! If you are not down here in the next 10 minutes, we're going to be late!" Granted, it's not always good to be slow. But there are also times when slowness is relaxation and reflection. And when it is that, then it is definitely not time wasted.
But being wasteful? There is zero benefit to that. Don't waste your life by doing things that don't feed the soul. The soul is very absorbent--it needs food. It takes whatever comes its way. Note that I said feed. There are also things that will diminish it and take you further from where you were meant to be. So feed it with the things that was meant for it.
I once tried dog food just to see what it tasted like. And guess what...not so great. Why? Because that food wasn't meant for me. Similarly, so much stuff in this culture is not meant for you. You are meant for something higher. Please don't taint the light in you. Don't taint the body. Don't taint that sacred sanctuary.
But you know what is so amazing? Even after you do taint it, even after you messed up, God still has you on His radar. He's got you on his radar, 24/7. But people need to sleep, eat, play... so people don't have their radars on 24/7. That's why you can't depend on people. But for God, everything he does is for you, and he looks at everyone, but he loves as if there was only you to love. He's everywhere, and his power cannot be imitated in any way, shape, or form. But do not take the grace for granted. Don't think, "Oh, God will forgive me, so I'll just do this. For now." Nope. Every sin still has its consequences. Every sin you don't commit, you get a reward for it later. Control. I think we all need more of that. God will always see you through.
Always know that your light, as well as everyone else's light, is beautiful. I can never wait to see more of that shine. When you die to yourself, your plans, hopes, wishes..and start focusing on the things that matter, your light is beautiful. :)
When you give, you are love. When all you can think about is what others can do for you, that's selfishness. And we all know that subconsciously, because we have all been there.
I don't even consider yesterday's post to be an accurate description of the light. There are no words to describe it correctly. Let's just say that I see (whenever I say see, I mean feel) something beautiful inside people, but they are not fulfilling their full potential. And when I see that (and I see it constantly), I become sad, because I know and clearly see that beautiful purity...if only they would strive for it too. But then at the same time, I am happy, because you only know what is good when you have seen what is evil.
People in this world (myself included) often strive for things. It's great. But do you know why it's also not great? Sometimes I strove for something that doesn't matter. Something that doesn't last. And that's called time wasted.
I should say that anyone who knows me knows I am the slowest person on Earth. I think I must have rubbed off of my late turtle, Golden Toe. He was this little green turtle that my mom's friend smuggled for me from China. So yes, he was an illegal immigrant :D But I loved my turtle anyways because he reminded me that being slow has its benefits, no matter how much my dad would be yelling every day: "Michelle! If you are not down here in the next 10 minutes, we're going to be late!" Granted, it's not always good to be slow. But there are also times when slowness is relaxation and reflection. And when it is that, then it is definitely not time wasted.
But being wasteful? There is zero benefit to that. Don't waste your life by doing things that don't feed the soul. The soul is very absorbent--it needs food. It takes whatever comes its way. Note that I said feed. There are also things that will diminish it and take you further from where you were meant to be. So feed it with the things that was meant for it.
I once tried dog food just to see what it tasted like. And guess what...not so great. Why? Because that food wasn't meant for me. Similarly, so much stuff in this culture is not meant for you. You are meant for something higher. Please don't taint the light in you. Don't taint the body. Don't taint that sacred sanctuary.
But you know what is so amazing? Even after you do taint it, even after you messed up, God still has you on His radar. He's got you on his radar, 24/7. But people need to sleep, eat, play... so people don't have their radars on 24/7. That's why you can't depend on people. But for God, everything he does is for you, and he looks at everyone, but he loves as if there was only you to love. He's everywhere, and his power cannot be imitated in any way, shape, or form. But do not take the grace for granted. Don't think, "Oh, God will forgive me, so I'll just do this. For now." Nope. Every sin still has its consequences. Every sin you don't commit, you get a reward for it later. Control. I think we all need more of that. God will always see you through.
Always know that your light, as well as everyone else's light, is beautiful. I can never wait to see more of that shine. When you die to yourself, your plans, hopes, wishes..and start focusing on the things that matter, your light is beautiful. :)
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