It's been a while since I've posted, but...a girl with a writing condition will always have to write, haha :)
Recently, I've been made aware of my over-concern to children that I've been told I can't be concerned about because giving them more attention will not lead to improvement (more likely the opposite). I've also realized that as much as I love teaching, it may not be the right thing for me because kids see me as a friend as opposed to an authoritative figure. Maybe it's my own issue, but I have never seen myself as a transmitter of information. I have always seen myself as a resource for the children to use and a co-"explorer", if that makes any sense...
Anyways, my life has been a peaceful mess these days. It's peaceful because I am resting and just allowing God to work. All I have to do is follow His directions. On the other hand, it's a mess because all that I've known is being torn into pieces.
I've just switched my major to Educational Studies, and that was a huge and unfortunate decision that I had to make (but one that I am at peace with, at least for now). My other major, Second Language Studies, still remains, and I am thinking about adding Psychology or Sociology to the mix.
Ironically, I will be in Hong Kong this summer, teaching for Johns Hopkins' Center for Talented Youth. I get to work with a group of 27 3rd and 4th graders in the Inventions class. In the afternoon, I get to plan fun activities for these adorable people. From nerd activities to sports to crafts and crazy themed days, it's time to put my event planning/lesson planning skills to the test. And.. yayyy anyone who knows me knows I LOVE innovation. I still have respect for tradition though. I'm just not that great at looking into the past, but I will always be sure to learn from it. That being said, I am always anticipating the future and all of God's work. So I'll be looking forward to getting to know Hong Kong. The only down side is that I actually have to make 2 trips to China this summer. Now, I love China, but 4 16+ hour flights might make me lose oxygen. As much as I love traveling and flying, I wasn't born with fully developed lungs, and nightmare of losing air on the plane always comes back. This will also be the first time I will be going to China without my parents. I guess I'll just cherish the experience.
When I am in China, I will be completely barred from Youtube, Facebook, Gmail, and many other U.S/ social media sites. Maybe it's a good thing I've decided to delete all my accounts. I'm pretty sure that by doing so, I will be able to put more valuable time into my schedule and do more worthwhile things. I often say that the internet has robbed me of and given me many things...I would say that social media is a hard one to rate because it does both. But I think of all the things I lose, if I lose my character, I'll be done forever. So I won't let that happen. I don't think I contribute that much to the online community either, so it's important for me to think about what exactly I have been doing...
You know, sometimes one person can't do much, but one person can do much..it's a great paradox. I just need to make sure I am not contributing terrible things to society.
And as I reflect, these are some of the things that I've been flashing back to recently, hahaha. Oh, the semester goes by fast! I'm done with exams and am going to leave soon.
Recently, I've been made aware of my over-concern to children that I've been told I can't be concerned about because giving them more attention will not lead to improvement (more likely the opposite). I've also realized that as much as I love teaching, it may not be the right thing for me because kids see me as a friend as opposed to an authoritative figure. Maybe it's my own issue, but I have never seen myself as a transmitter of information. I have always seen myself as a resource for the children to use and a co-"explorer", if that makes any sense...
Anyways, my life has been a peaceful mess these days. It's peaceful because I am resting and just allowing God to work. All I have to do is follow His directions. On the other hand, it's a mess because all that I've known is being torn into pieces.
I've just switched my major to Educational Studies, and that was a huge and unfortunate decision that I had to make (but one that I am at peace with, at least for now). My other major, Second Language Studies, still remains, and I am thinking about adding Psychology or Sociology to the mix.
Ironically, I will be in Hong Kong this summer, teaching for Johns Hopkins' Center for Talented Youth. I get to work with a group of 27 3rd and 4th graders in the Inventions class. In the afternoon, I get to plan fun activities for these adorable people. From nerd activities to sports to crafts and crazy themed days, it's time to put my event planning/lesson planning skills to the test. And.. yayyy anyone who knows me knows I LOVE innovation. I still have respect for tradition though. I'm just not that great at looking into the past, but I will always be sure to learn from it. That being said, I am always anticipating the future and all of God's work. So I'll be looking forward to getting to know Hong Kong. The only down side is that I actually have to make 2 trips to China this summer. Now, I love China, but 4 16+ hour flights might make me lose oxygen. As much as I love traveling and flying, I wasn't born with fully developed lungs, and nightmare of losing air on the plane always comes back. This will also be the first time I will be going to China without my parents. I guess I'll just cherish the experience.
When I am in China, I will be completely barred from Youtube, Facebook, Gmail, and many other U.S/ social media sites. Maybe it's a good thing I've decided to delete all my accounts. I'm pretty sure that by doing so, I will be able to put more valuable time into my schedule and do more worthwhile things. I often say that the internet has robbed me of and given me many things...I would say that social media is a hard one to rate because it does both. But I think of all the things I lose, if I lose my character, I'll be done forever. So I won't let that happen. I don't think I contribute that much to the online community either, so it's important for me to think about what exactly I have been doing...
You know, sometimes one person can't do much, but one person can do much..it's a great paradox. I just need to make sure I am not contributing terrible things to society.
And as I reflect, these are some of the things that I've been flashing back to recently, hahaha. Oh, the semester goes by fast! I'm done with exams and am going to leave soon.
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| Just ate sausage the other day, and it was nowhere as good as the one at this Weihnachtsmarkt. Shoot, I also really want some good Apfel Schorle right now. |
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| Other than the fact that my brother was an adorable child and that yellow drink is one of my favorite drinks on the planet and wow..home has changed so much since the early 2000s, lol no big deal. |
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| I miss rowing boats like these. I never got the sea captain gene from my grandpa, but that's ok :) And blargggg why are there always cute kids everywhere I go...I think I just love kids too much. I'll just go work in an orphanage where I can see beautiful kids day in and day out. Maybe I'll consider getting a Masters in Social Work. I really like it, but again, it earns no money. Let's face it, nothing that I actually enjoy doing ever earns money. And honestly, I'm ok with that, but I also can't just always think about how I feel and not how the people around me would feel, haha. |
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